T'was The Night Before :)

Tommorrow, I begin my life as a "student teacher". This is pretty surreal. I always knew that I would get here, however, the road wasn't and hasn't been an easy one. I know there are people who never believed in my skills, academically. I know a lot of people, particularly growing up, never thought I was smart enough. So many parts of me are so thankful that I didn't graduate as a "traditional" student. I was. Not. Ready. When I was 22, I wasn't ready to graduate or focus on school. I wanted to live my life with my friends and have fun. And I did. But there comes a point when growing up and being mature becomes, or should become, the priority. The spring semester doesn't begin until January 17th. However, my semester begins tommorrow. Tommorrow, I will attend my first teacher inservice. Wednesday, I will begin my first day as a high school teacher. This.is.crazy! I have found myself doubting my knowledge, my ability to handle the responsibilities. Part of me wants to withdraw from this and enroll in regular courses and have 2 more weeks worth of vacation. The other part of me knows that this is what I want. I am pretty excited. I almost feel like a child on Christmas Eve. I don't know what tommorrow holds for me. I don't know what this week holds for me.
I don't know how the students will react to me. I don't know how I am going to answer questions that I don't have answers to. I want to know all of the answers beforehand. But I'm human and I know that's not possible. I want to do good at this. People have always told me that I will be a great teacher. People have told me that they would love to be in my history class. I just hope that I can make this semester an interesting one for my students.
I'm nervous. Excited, Scared, and already exhausted just thinking about the lessons and grading I will be doing. BUT...I'm so excited to get this ball rolling!