Well, it's officially the second week into 2011 and I'm still confused when I read things with the year on it! I've been sticking to my new diet the best that I can. Having been down this road before I know that it's a lifestyle change-not an overnight sensation. Running has gotten a lot easier for me and I can do it for a straight 2 miles and/or 30 minutes. My favorite part about working out though is weight lifting because it makes me feel so strong. I bought a new workout shirt today and it makes me anxious to wear it to the gym. Right now I'm thinking small motivators like that may help me stay on the workout track throughout this treachorous journey until March. I'm already feeling a lot more comfortable in my own skin but the tempation of baking cookies and cupcakes is horrendous...along with my every day craving for ice cream :( Buuuut, I know that once I reach my goal I will be able to have those things again. I'm not sure why I haven't been able to lose the 2 pounds every week because I'm riding between a 2 pound range right now and that sucks. But I feel my body getting stronger and me having more energy. Hopefully the pounds start shedding soon.
Tonight, I have a lot on my mind. I'm not sure if I should simply pray about it or write about it too. Sometimes a peak happens in life and it's hard to recognize if you're going to be able to keep going or if everything needs to be re-evaluated 100%. The best thing though is that I'm surrounded by so many positive people so it's pretty encouraging to have faith when I feel like it's slipping. Goodnight world.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
The Harsh, Brutal Truth
So, I'm writing this blog to announce my goal. To lose weight. Yeah, I know it's the beginning of a new year, so a lot of people declare they want to lose weight. I'm not doing it so much for the new year, but for my birthday. Thankfully, I'm a March baby so I get extra motivation to just get this done!
But, there is a back story to this which begins in 2007. In September of 2007, I competed in my last pageant- Miss South OKC. At the time, I had no idea that would be my last time to compete on stage(and oh how I miss that feeling). I had every intention to return to Kansas after that weekend and win my crown and head to the Miss Kansas stage the following summer. However, fate took my life on a drastic turn. Looking back now, I'm okay with the path that my life was to follow, because as much as I loved competing, this new life brought a lot of questions about my preparedness for the future. I was not prepared for my future at all. I was simply coasting through my life.
Why am I bringing this up? I'm bringing it up because in pageant world there is a requirement to be in shape-excellent shape. I look back all the time and realize that I went from competing on stage in a swimsuit that September to barely able to fit into a pair of size 14 jeans. Oh. My. Gosh. Although there is a perfectly logical explanation, and my close friends know this, I realized last year that it was time to stop feeling sorry for myself. I happily ended a 2 year mentally and physically abusive relationship and started living my life again. However, during that relationship I had no motivation at all to feel good about myself again. In September of 2009 I realized that I needed to do something about the weight I have been carrying around. I started exercising, but not much.
Over the past year I have battled with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and at the moment I feel like it's finally under control. What else can be missing?!? The only thing I'm missing is feeling great about myself every day. So this week I've started my journey/countdown to March-my birthday!
The Plan: 45 minutes of cardio 5 times a week & 30 minutes of weights 3 times a week. Being a vegetarian, the eating thing is the hardest part because I'm constantly eating carbs. For this I'm doing the slim-fast plan. 2 shakes a day, 1 500 calorie meal, and fruits/snacks throughout the day. For my meal I chose veggie burgers, weight watchers meals, and lean cuisines.
Now I won't be using this blog as a "dieters blog" but I will frequently update about my progress.
But, there is a back story to this which begins in 2007. In September of 2007, I competed in my last pageant- Miss South OKC. At the time, I had no idea that would be my last time to compete on stage(and oh how I miss that feeling). I had every intention to return to Kansas after that weekend and win my crown and head to the Miss Kansas stage the following summer. However, fate took my life on a drastic turn. Looking back now, I'm okay with the path that my life was to follow, because as much as I loved competing, this new life brought a lot of questions about my preparedness for the future. I was not prepared for my future at all. I was simply coasting through my life.
Why am I bringing this up? I'm bringing it up because in pageant world there is a requirement to be in shape-excellent shape. I look back all the time and realize that I went from competing on stage in a swimsuit that September to barely able to fit into a pair of size 14 jeans. Oh. My. Gosh. Although there is a perfectly logical explanation, and my close friends know this, I realized last year that it was time to stop feeling sorry for myself. I happily ended a 2 year mentally and physically abusive relationship and started living my life again. However, during that relationship I had no motivation at all to feel good about myself again. In September of 2009 I realized that I needed to do something about the weight I have been carrying around. I started exercising, but not much.
Over the past year I have battled with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and at the moment I feel like it's finally under control. What else can be missing?!? The only thing I'm missing is feeling great about myself every day. So this week I've started my journey/countdown to March-my birthday!
The Plan: 45 minutes of cardio 5 times a week & 30 minutes of weights 3 times a week. Being a vegetarian, the eating thing is the hardest part because I'm constantly eating carbs. For this I'm doing the slim-fast plan. 2 shakes a day, 1 500 calorie meal, and fruits/snacks throughout the day. For my meal I chose veggie burgers, weight watchers meals, and lean cuisines.
Now I won't be using this blog as a "dieters blog" but I will frequently update about my progress.
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