The End's Not Near, It's Here

I started this blog way back in 2010, and today that feels like a lifetime ago. I changed the name a couple of times, but finally settled on this name in 2012. I used to post regularly and had hopes of growing the blog. It's been a lot of fun to look back on posts. I still get traffic coming through,  and I hope I've helped those readers in some way. I've had several people find me and ask about Graves Disease and hyperthyroidism. It's a good feeling to be able to offer a glimmer of hope to those people; as I'm currently training for my first half marathon and feeling better than I have in almost 2 years.  I finally feel like I've "beat" graves.

And I finally feel like my broken heart is healing, a little at a time. So then, to me, it makes sense to leave this blog as it is, and where it is. I really feel like God is getting me ready for something MUCH larger.  I wrote about my former relationship a lot throughout this blog, never imagining it would all be  over one day. I'm a very sentimental person and just can't picture moving forward here, as much as I would love to; I would love even more for things to be different-but that's just on a bad day. I trust that God knows what he's doing and that 'I' DESERVE to be happy! I have much better days where "acceptance" is easier. I've learned to accept that the outcome isn't what I wanted or hoped for and the topics I prayed for will never be on this blog. It's tough, but I just really want to PRETEND ALL OF THIS NEVER HAPPENED :)

I've tried to make my presence on social media more limited over the past year. I have a lot of healing left; and oddly I have sometimes felt that some people enjoyed watching me go through everything.  When all is said and done, I am so thankful for how far I've made it when I didn't think I would.

The person on this blog isn't me. Traffic will always be welcome  and one day I might come back and reconstruct. For now, I'm going to stay true to the title of this blog and pretend that none of it ever happened.

Take care, everyone!

Where I'm hiding!

Okay, I'm not hiding anywhere. I'm just at home. Very tired 100% of the time. As most of you know I had my thyroid ablated (radiation to basically kill it) in November. I have been on synthroid for 2 weeks to replace my thyroid as it is dying every day and started making me the opposite of what I was-hypothyroid instead of hyperthyroid. It is a very hard adaptation after being hyper for over a year, not sure how long but my dr believes it was many years, to basically dropping to nothing. I spend the energy I have for my career. Two days after my ablation I was asked to coach girls basketball starting immediately, so I had no resting time. I was then asked to coach boys basketball as soon as girls ended, still giving me zero time for rest. I currently work 12 hr days, everyday.
I came home yesterday and went to sleep at 8. Hard to believe I was in bed for 12 hrs. Thanks graves disease! You will soon be as close to dead as possible.

I would love to share many things with many people, but I'm behind on gift giving, card sending, and thank you calls to people. I plan to stop posting on social media (not my blog!) almost completely in the very near future, although I have no plans to deactivate my accounts. I think there comes a point where people become your audience rather than important players in your life, and I really don't like my "friends" turning into my audience.

I'm off to stay warm and get more rest. Have a lovely february!