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Saturday, July 19, 2014

The End's Not Near, It's Here

I started this blog way back in 2010, and today that feels like a lifetime ago. I changed the name a couple of times, but finally settled on this name in 2012. I used to post regularly and had hopes of growing the blog. It's been a lot of fun to look back on posts. I still get traffic coming through,  and I hope I've helped those readers in some way. I've had several people find me and ask about Graves Disease and hyperthyroidism. It's a good feeling to be able to offer a glimmer of hope to those people; as I'm currently training for my first half marathon and feeling better than I have in almost 2 years.  I finally feel like I've "beat" graves.

And I finally feel like my broken heart is healing, a little at a time. So then, to me, it makes sense to leave this blog as it is, and where it is. I really feel like God is getting me ready for something MUCH larger.  I wrote about my former relationship a lot throughout this blog, never imagining it would all be  over one day. I'm a very sentimental person and just can't picture moving forward here, as much as I would love to; I would love even more for things to be different-but that's just on a bad day. I trust that God knows what he's doing and that 'I' DESERVE to be happy! I have much better days where "acceptance" is easier. I've learned to accept that the outcome isn't what I wanted or hoped for and the topics I prayed for will never be on this blog. It's tough, but I just really want to PRETEND ALL OF THIS NEVER HAPPENED :)

I've tried to make my presence on social media more limited over the past year. I have a lot of healing left; and oddly I have sometimes felt that some people enjoyed watching me go through everything.  When all is said and done, I am so thankful for how far I've made it when I didn't think I would.

The person on this blog isn't me. Traffic will always be welcome  and one day I might come back and reconstruct. For now, I'm going to stay true to the title of this blog and pretend that none of it ever happened.

Take care, everyone!

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